Oh, my dear, my dear, my dear. First, you are a beautiful scribe, inside and out!! ;-) And furthermore, most of us feel as you do. I certainly do. Every damned day, I wonder what the hell I'm doing sitting on my ass in front of my computer shouting into the abyss. But that's how we're made. And we have to continue to make of it what we can. I'm giving you a big, freakin' virtual hug, right now!!